I don't know why i am in the way i am

I'm a Little monster and this blog is not about something special...but here's more about Lady gaga, Skins Lana del Rey and my feelings, that's all ~I'm not suicidal, I'm tired. I don't want to die I just want the pain to go away. I'm tired of feeling never good enough. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of hurting myself. I'm tired of crying. I'm just so fucking tired.~It's one of those things that people say, you can't move on until you let go of the past. Letting go is the easy part, it's the moving on that's painful. So sometimes we fight it, try and keep things the same. Things can't stay the same though. At some point, you just have to let go. Move on. Because no matter how painful it is, it's the only way we grow.~I don't know why i am in the way i am...something make me hate everything EVERYTHING! ~Everything ends badly. Don’t you wish could go back to when you hadn’t lost anything?…Everything’s in the future. More shit to happen, that’s all.~Being a person is getting too complicated. ~“It’s kind of easy when you’ve got nothing because nothing can’t be taken away from you.”~ It’s like you’re screaming and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you.~ “We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.” Orson Welles”